Its amazing how a few hip-hop beats can transform a generic radio traffic report into a jamming newsbeat. The station that our shuttle driver listens to always plays funky old-school. It makes a lazy early morning ride to school a little more worthwhile.
Anyhoo.
Its crunch time here in Philly. Basketball season has started, Eagles fans (or should I say VULTURES) are already gearing up for the NFL playoffs, and my law school finals are so close that I'm dreaming about scantrons and number two pencils. Weird thing is, we don't even use them for exams.
The quarter has flown by. In Criminal Procedure today, we were going over material that seems so fresh in my mind yet so overwhelming. Studying three Constitutional amendments in the course of nine weeks doesn't sound like much but my goodness is it heavy! Learning about our "rights" has been fun but so confusing! I walked into class believing I understood how the rules worked and walked out with an almost totally different analytical approach to the fourth amendment. Thank goodness we don't have to learn this stuff on our own...which brings me to this question...
When will I GET IT? I fear being the perpetual newbie - always learning, never instructing. I don't mind learning, I'm just frustrated with not absorbing information and nuances of legal rules fast enough. I remember feeling so mature (intellectually and emotionally) when I was younger - it was like I was five steps ahead of others my age. Now I am the small fish in the big pond and its a bugger. The passage of a year of this MADNESS has surely made me grow to new depths and heights, yet that nagging sensation of anxiety coupled with a wavering self-confidence never goes away. A failure-cloud looms over my head and I wish I could just blow it off like a bubble.
Sigh.
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