Saturday, September 29, 2007

Premature Aging

I just got back from a weekend trip in Jersey with my friend "Teddy." She and I attended the Philadelphia Bench Bar Conference at Ballys in Atlantic City. Its basically an annual get together of over 500 hundred judges and lawyers to wine, dine, schmooze and earn CLE (continuing legal education) credits. For a whopping student "discount" price, I was hoping for some more goodies (see below). Still I was satisfied with the mug, the portfolio and other random little items. The food was delicious as well.



We attended two panels, one that dealt with real estate fraud, where people buy vacant or abandoned homes, look up its title (i.e. who held the house last) and sell it to prospective buyers. The fraud in this is that they are selling "bad title," or property that isn't going to really be the prospective buyers, because the previous owner of the home cannot be identified. The sellers of these properties make money off of these unsuspecting buyers by giving them fraudulent titles. I know, enough with the property lesson, right?

The second panel was much more interesting from my end. We sat in on a mock opening argument by a lawyer, where we the audience was the jury. The demonstration was to show how video depositions (interviews with the witnesses) during opening statements can be effectively persuasive in winning your case. After the presentation, Teddy asked me whether I think I could do a better job than the guy who did the argument. That made me giggle. Because, I think either of us probably could.

Aging. There was plenty of that to be seen amongst all the attendees; I think being surrounded by these older legal professionals caused me to grey within the hour - the bathroom mirror revealed a white hair that I refused to pull out. My hair is scarce as it is. I was glad we didn't attend the night before because then we'd have to see these old men (and women) gamble and get drunk.

All in all, the conference was a good experience and I'm glad I got exposure to some of the people out there in the legal community. Although we didn't network much, we did meet a few people (including a "Varghese" and woot that was his first name!) and a judge who will be visiting our school this week.

My friend and I did have a desire to stay there longer to walk the boardwalk, play and shop and even --gasp!--see J.Lo and her blood-sucking-hubby in concert. I am not a great fan of either, but it would be interesting to see the dynamic.

To weekends!

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Pro Bono, Charley Horses and Cool People

Our school has a mandatory requirement of fifty hours of pro bono service for graduation. Pro Bono is basically volunteer-work on legal issues facing mostly indigent and under-represented communities. Today I went to a panel highlighting some of the pro bono projects our school has set up. A few of my favorites include the Homeless Advocacy Project (helping homeless people with their legal issues particularly housing and welfare), Project Peace (teaching elementary school students mediation and dispute resolution) and Child Advocacy Services, where we're basically assigned to a foster child or other child whose parents are fighting for custody for him or her and we act as a pseudo-parent/legal guardian. What I like about all these projects is that they are very client-oriented. I feel like once I start doing some pro bono work, I'll hate law school less.

First my pinky toes and now charley horses. Well, I finally figured out what that term meant after having experienced a severe one yesterday. I was doing Pilates when while stretching, my calf tightened up to the point where I could feel a ball-like knot in the back of it that caused me to fall on the floor and grab my leg in excruciating pain. I've had these before, in fact I had one a few weeks ago out of nowhere in the middle of the night while sleeping. I explained this to a friend of mine and she immediately diagnosed it as a "Charley Horse"; apparently either I'm potassium deficient or dehydrated. Anyway, it is still sore. Gah the things I get myself into!

Cool People. I love being surrounded by artists, especially dancers and singers. My roommates have created an atmosphere where I can be daily reminded of the best feelings, thoughts and emotions life has to offer. I'm definitely making it a goal this year to attend a concert of some sort. Although my roommate Emily plays the occasional Mozart or Chopin when she's practicing her vocals, there are no Philly stations like in NYC that exclusively play classical music. I think the lack of it is directly correlated with my sleep deprivation; I normally can't fall asleep unless I'm listening to the classical station. Technically, I could probably just find a station on my computer, but that would mean leaving it on all night which I'm trying to avoid. Oye, I'll just have to stick to the headphones.

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Legal Observing...and other observations.

I have joined the ranks of many law students and laypeople who love law-related...uh...stuff, by becoming a certified legal observer. What's legal observing you ask? Well, legal observers go to protests and observe and document whether there is abuse by authority against demonstrators. We are neutral in the sense that we are not there to protest, but merely to keep watch (and of course, take notes) of any suspicious, bizarre or prejudiced behavior towards peaceful protesters i.e. people getting arrested for being civilly disobedient or crazy swat teams coming in and macing a crowd. We're also subjective in the sense that as observers, we only show up to protests if and when invited by protesters. We're sort of their guardian angels. Angels in green hats and arm bands!

The training was sponsored by our school's National Lawyer's Guild and was pretty quick, if not a little rushed. Its so hard to hold meetings sometimes because everyone's schedules are so varied.

Tomorrow I'll be home for the weekend! I'm looking forward to seeing the family and the amigas. We still have to figure out a place to dine for Cindy&Nan's birthday dinner.

We also have fellowship tomorrow! I look forward to that. I'm not sure how to make the other girls in our group feel more enthusiastic about it. I guess these things take time? I don't know, sometimes its disheartening when you see people in your own Church turned off by things you want to start for your own young adults, but completely absorbed and attracted and COMMITTED to projects started by people from other Church communities. If only they could share that same vigor and energy for their own Church! I am all for getting involved anywhere you can, but for me at least, I feel a sense of responsibility and priority for wanting to make our Church structurally and organizationally stronger.

Can you tell I'm passionate about this? I don't want this thing to fizzle out. Its so important to develop a personal relationship with Christ first before submitting (for lack of a better word) to hierarchy to tell you how to pray. Orthodoxy is something that is rich in tradition and culture, but as wonderful as it is, it tends to de-emphasize the "personal relationship" aspect of our faith and instead hammers home our traditions, our rituals, our Church fathers etc.

Ok, time to go study some evidence. If you're reading out there, please pray for the girls in my Church, that we're steadfast with our fellowship. Gracias.

Tuesday, September 18, 2007

Tired, like whoa.

What. A. Day. I think I'm beginning to get an idea of what my future is going to look like. Long hours, little pay, with just a teeny weeny ounce of "fun."

Today I went to this "Women and Networking: Why Women are Leaving Firms and how to Succeed in Interviewing" event sponsored by the Phildelphia Bar. After waking up at 5:30 this morning, having a class, studying from 1-3, taking a trip to Center City for this program at 4 (via the subway which OF COURSE was stalled because of an on-the-car knife fight between two high-schoolers GAH) and now just arriving home at 8:30, all I can say is...I'm POOPED. Granted, the event was kind of cool. I got to meet some interesting female attorneys (it was a strictly women only event) but not nearly as many as one likely does at these things; its not that I'm loathe to networking, I just wasn't in the right mood today. Plus, I was so hungry, and the "reception" featured none other than wine and cheese. Can't lawyers be more creative? Sheesh.

The event featured two panels: the first was for actual attorneys sitting in to receive CLE (Continuing Legal Education) credit, and the second panel focused on interviewing skills for law students and attorneys seeking lateral employment. Nothing new or earth-shattering was brought to my attention, so suffice it to say, I was quite bored. There was one comment that threw me off by one of the panelists and that was "Try wearing skirt suits at interviews. Nix the pant suits." Excuse me? That's the most retarded thing I've ever heard at a law workshop. I'm glad the final panelist politely pointed the silliness of that statement. I'm not against wearing skirt suits but the way she came out and said it was so elitist. It seemed to suck the female-empowerment-vibe this event was probably trying to promote. Hint hint! Maybe off-color comments like that contribute to the dwindling female population in firms and in-house corporations.

I hate being socialized into a profession. This is why I can never work at a large firm. Big brains, bigger egos, little sincerity. At least that's my sense of it so far.

Saturday, September 15, 2007

Kimchi and Company

My roommate, Suzie, was so sweet today; she made sure I was home for lunch and cooked us a meal. It was nice to actually eat with people I live with, at a dining table. I'm going to have to figure out how to make a curry to keep up with these girls!

As we ate, Suzie told me about why she nixed the goal of becoming a professional dancer and opted to become a teacher instead. Its one of those stories you watch in a movie - big dreams tarnished by physical injury; in this case, it was her Achilles. It was so badly injured that her emotional well-being sort of collapsed; she spoke pretty candidly about how she really believed her life wasn't worth living anymore. Although I've only known her for two months, its strange to think of this woman as anything but jovial and giddy.

I admire people who can relocate themselves from a whole other world and rebuild themselves in a new one. Surely many of our parents did it, but its kind of different when you see it happen before your eyes, when you can empathize with someone else as an adult. She feels the occasional loneliness and isolation, mostly from not knowing the language as well and being a single woman in her thirties away from her family. But when I asked her whether she wanted to go back to Korea, she said no. I reassured her things would get better; she half-heartedly believed me. I hope things do get better. I think things do get better for people with her resolve.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Exhaustion

I am so tired. So tired.

I stubbed my toe in an awkward way last week and it still hurts. Actually, I didn't stub it; I landed on it after I rolled off the bed, thinking it was my "high bed" at home-home. I hope it isn't fractured or sprained. I'll just have to wear flip-flops because the closed shoes make my toes pulsate.

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

In Memoriam

"While There is Time"
~Grace Easley

While there is time Lord, May I use it well
'Tis gone in a moment, One never can tell,
Which day is our last one, With so much to do
All must be in order, When summoned by You.

While there is time, Lord, And life is my own,
Let me bring gladness To someone alone.
Renew a small hope, Rekindle a dream
For shadows are never as dark as they seem

While there is time, Lord, let me not waste
The chances you give me, I cannot replace,
Lend me your wisdom, That I may learn To give of myself,
Nor ask a return.

Let me be gentle, Keep my words kind,
In spite of the worries, Crossing my mind.

And when at long last, Life's sun starts to set,
Let me have never have a cause for regret.

Monday, September 10, 2007

Notes Notes Notes

I've read about half the material for my criminal procedure class and have generated six pages of written notes. At this rate, I'm going to have to stock up on looseleaf real soon...

We finally got internet! I mean our very own! No more trying to find open networks to connect to. I was initially rebuff to getting it since I could manage with wireless from school, but figuring its only going to be about $11 for each of us per month, what the heck.

ON that note, why is it that the people who come in to install cable/wireless always look like convicted felons? The guy today --prepare for the stereotypes-- had a broken tooth, baggy jeans and tats all over but his personality was quite affable. I was getting concerned though because he kept asking me questions, like where I go to school and what I do and how long I've been living in this apartment. Suffice to say, I played it off like it was no big deal but I was getting a bit uncomfortable with all the prying. He figured out I went to law school because stupid me left a casebook on the dining table to study. Once he caught sight of it...

Friendly "ex-felon": OHH so you're one of those, eh?

Me: Heh.

FEXF: Yeah I know PLENTY of lawyers. Stay away from the drugs...

Me: *nervous laughter*

FEXF: You wouldn't believe where I've seen some of these judges and lawyers turn up. All cool in the courtroom but outside [muffled words, possibly "alleyways"] they're all different.

Me: Oh. I'm not like one of those!! (In hindsight, what kind of response was that?)

FEXF: Just stay away from the snort. Stay away.

Me: *more nervous laughter*

Well, I didn't inquire about how he knew so many lawyers. One could only imagine. He was really nice though, hooked up a router for us since my roommate and I looked completely clueless when he attempted to explain the self-installation part of that.

Speaking of clueless, when I came home this afternoon, our fridge wasn't working. After calling maintenance several times, including having to deal with a very 'tudy security guard, the repairman came. All he did was flick the switch on the circuit breaker. He gave me this look like "You couldn't figure this out on your own? Pathetic." Little does he know that I suspected it was probably a circuit breaker problem, considering the electricity everywhere else was working. I just didn't want to touch the wrong switch and blow a fuse. Sheesh!

Off to sleep. Whims and dreams await.

Sunday, September 9, 2007

Overdue

I went home this weekend to pick up some things I had forgotten when I came back for school. Its nice to have a new comforter set to sleep in. I love the feeling of crispy, new sheets!

As I stall with studying for my classes, I figured I'd write a list of things that have been or are long overdue:

1. Bible Fellowship for our Youth - I'm happy to report that on Friday some of the young women of my Church congregated at Panera to have our first informal fellowship. I lead the discussion on "Spiritual Doubt" and I must say that I definitely learned something from the conversation. I admire these young girls, most of them in high school, who had such an insightful perspective on the topic. You would never know it considering our Church youth meetings tend to be one-sided lectures that barely anybody participates in. I think they were more open to talk too, because it was an all-female setting. I hope these Friday Fellowships will become a staple for our Church girls.

2. My library books - Well three of them are due on September 12, but one has been due since August 23 and for some reason and I can't part with it, despite the fact that I'll have no time to read it.

3. Bench Bar Conference - I finally registered for this thing. It'll be held in AC, NJ and will feature 500+ lawyers and judges. I hope this will help me build some networking skills. It better be worth the $130 I'm paying for it!

4. Bringing my tennis racket to PA - I've been meaning to play with a friend of mine; the courts out here are free. Since the Open will be over tomorrow, I'll be going through mild tennis withdrawal. I need to feed the addiction!

5. Having the apt feel like a semi-home - My roommate Emily brought over furniture and art to fill up the living room. Although it looks cluttered now, I like the feel of it. I can't wait until Christmas!

6. Studying - Isn't this always overdue? Oye I think procrastination is a genetic trait.

Saturday, September 8, 2007

A Wrinkle In Memory

I'm a bit sad at the moment. I just read that Madeline L'Engle passed away at 88. I don't know why I'm sad, because I probably thought she had died long ago. Isn't it strange how one thinks authors have either been long gone or live forever? Maybe its just nostalgia for childhood memories. Here's the Times obituary of the author:

"Madeleine L’Engle, Children’s Writer, Is Dead"
By DOUGLAS MARTIN

Madeleine L’Engle, who in writing more than 60 books, including childhood fables, religious meditations and science fiction, weaved emotional tapestries transcending genre and generation, died Thursday in Connecticut. She was 88.

Her death, of natural causes, was announced today by her publisher, Farrar, Straus and Giroux.

Ms. L’Engle (pronounced LENG-el) was best known for her children’s classic, “A Wrinkle in Time,” which won the John Newbery Award as the best children’s book of 1963. By 2004, it had sold more than 6 million copies, was in its 67th printing and was still selling 15,000 copies a year.

Her works — poetry, plays, autobiography and books on prayer — were deeply, quixotically personal. But it was in her vivid children’s characters that readers most clearly glimpsed her passionate search for the questions that mattered most. She sometimes spoke of her writing as if she were taking dictation from her subconscious.

“Of course I’m Meg,” Ms. L’Engle said about the beloved protagonist of “A Wrinkle in Time.”

The “St. James Guide to Children’s Writers” called Ms. L’Engle “one of the truly important writers of juvenile fiction in recent decades.” Such accolades did not come from pulling punches: “Wrinkle” is one of the most banned books because of its treatment of the deity.

“It was a dark and stormy night,” it begins, repeating the line of a 19th- century novelist Edward George Bulwer-Lytton, and presaging the immortal sentence that Snoopy, the inspiration-challenged beagle of the Peanuts cartoon, would type again and again. After the opening, “Wrinkle,” quite literally, takes off. Meg Murray, with help from her psychic baby brother, uses time travel and extrasensory perception to rescue her father, a gifted scientist, from a planet controlled by the Dark Thing. She does so through the power of love.

The book used concepts that Ms. L’Engle said she had plucked from Einstein’s theory of relativity and Planck’s quantum theory, almost flaunting her frequent assertion that children’s literature is literature too difficult for adults to understand. She also characterized the book as her refutation of ideas of German theologians.

In the “Dictionary of Literary Biography,” Marygail G. Parker notes “a peculiar splendor” in Ms. L’Engle’s oeuvre, and some of that splendor is sheer literary range. “Wrinkle” is part of her series of children’s books, which includes “A Wind in the Door,” “A Swiftly Tilting Planet,” “Many Waters” and “An Acceptable Time.” The series combines elements of science fiction with insights into love and moral purpose that pervade Ms. L’Engle’s writing.

Ms. L’Engle’s other famous series of books concerned another family. The first installment, “Meet the Austins,” which appeared in 1960, portrayed an affectionate family whose members displayed enough warts to make them interesting. (Perhaps not enough for The Times Literary Supplement in London, though; it called the Austins “too good to be real.”)

By the fourth of the five Austin books, “A Ring of Endless Light,” any hint of Pollyanna was gone. Named a Newbery Honor Book in 1981, it told of a 16-year-old girl’s first experience with death. Telepathic communication with dolphins eventually helps the girl, Vicky, achieve a new understanding of things.

“The cosmic battle between light and darkness, good and evil, love and indifference, personified in the mythic fantasies of the ‘Wrinkle in Time’ series, here is waged compellingly in its rightful place: within ourselves,” Carol Van Strum wrote in The Washington Post in 1980.

Madeleine L’Engle Camp was born in Manhattan on the snowy night of Nov. 29, 1918. The only child of Madeleine Hall Barnett and Charles Wadsworth Camp, she was named for her great-grandmother, who was also named Madeleine L’Engle.

Young Madeleine’s mother came from Jacksonville, Fla., society and was a fine pianist; her father was a World War I veteran who worked as a foreign correspondent and later as drama and music critic for The New York Sun. He also knocked out potboiler novels.

The family lived on the Upper East Side of Manhattan; her parents had artistic friends, Madeleine an English nanny. She felt unpopular at school. She recalled that an elementary school teacher – Miss Pepper or Miss Salt, she couldn’t remember which — treated her as if she were stupid.

She had written her first story at 5 and retreated into writing. When she won a poetry contest in the fifth grade, her teacher accused her of plagiarizing. Her mother intervened to prove her innocence, lugging a stack of her stories from home.

When she was 12, she was sent to a boarding school in Switzerland, Chatelard, and at 15 to Ashley Hall, a boarding school in Charleston, S.C. She graduated from Smith College with honors in English. (She took no science, often a surprise to readers impressed with her science fiction.)

Returning to New York, Ms. L’Engle began to get small acting parts. She wrote her first novel, “The Small Rain,” in 1945 and had several plays she wrote produced.

She met the actor Hugh Franklin when both were appearing in a production of Chekhov’s “The Cherry Orchard.” They married in 1946, and their daughter Josephine was born the next year. In 1951, when Ms. L’Engle became pregnant again, they moved to the small town of Goshen, Conn., where they bought and ran a general store. Their son, Bion, was born in 1952, and in 1956 they adopted another daughter, Maria.

Mr. Franklin died in 1986 and Bion in 1999. Ms. L’Engle is survived by her daughters, Josephine F. Jones and Maria Rooney; five grandchildren; and five great-grandchildren.

Ms. L’Engle’s writing career was going so badly in her 30s that she claimed she almost quit writing at 40. But then “Meet the Austins” was published in 1960, and she was already deeply into “Wrinkle.” The inspiration came to her during a 10-week family camping trip.

That was just the start. She once described herself as a French peasant cook who drops a carrot in one pot, a piece of potato in another and an onion and a piece of meat in another.

“At dinnertime, you look and see which pot smells best and pull it forward,” she was quoted as saying in a 2001 book, “Madeleine L’Engle (Herself): Reflections on a Writing Life,” compiled by Carole F. Chase.

“The same is true with writing,” she continued. “There are several pots on my backburners.”

Her deeper thoughts on writing were deliciously mysterious. She believed that experience and knowledge are subservient to the subconscious and perhaps larger, spiritual influences.

“I think that fantasy must possess the author and simply use him,” she said in an interview with Horn Book magazine in 1983. “I know that is true of ‘A Wrinkle in Time.’ I cannot possibly tell you how I came to write it. It was simply a book I had to write. I had no choice.

“It was only after it was written that I realized what some of it meant.”

What turned out to be her masterpiece was rejected by 26 publishers. Editors at Farrar, Straus and Giroux loved it enough to publish it, but told her that she should not be disappointed if it failed.

The family moved back to New York, where Hugh Franklin won fame as Dr. Charles Tyler on the popular soap opera “All My Children.” For more than three decades, starting in 1966, Ms. L’Engle served as librarian and writer-in-residence at the Cathedral Church of St. John the Divine. One or two of her dogs often accompanied her to the cathedral library.

Much of her later work was autobiographical, although sometimes a bit idealized; she often said that her real truths were in her fiction. Indeed, she discussed her made-up stories the way a newspaper reporter might discuss his latest article about a crime.

When her son, then 10, protested the death of Joshua in “The Arms of the Starfish” (1965), she insisted that she could not change the tale, which was still unpublished at the time.

“I didn’t want Joshua to die, either,” Ms. L’Engle said in 1987 in a speech accepting the Margaret Edwards Award from the American Library Association for lifetime achievement in writing young adult literature, one of scores of awards she received.

“But that’s what happened. If I tried to change it, I’d be deviating from the truth of the story.”

Her characters continued living their lives even if she hadn’t mentioned them for decades. She had gotten word that Polly O’Keefe, who appeared in three books of the “Time Fantasy” series, was in medical school, she said a few months before the library speech.

A woman wrote her to say that she herself was a first-year medical student at Yale and that she would love to have Polly in her class. Ms. L’Engle said fine, and the student went to the registrar’s office to sign up Polly as an “official” Yale medical student.

“Why does anybody tell a story?” Ms. L’Engle once asked, even though she knew the answer.

“It does indeed have something to do with faith,” she said, “faith that the universe has meaning, that our little human lives are not irrelevant, that what we choose or say or do matters, matters cosmically.”

Thursday, September 6, 2007

Workhorse Week

"The first year, they scare you to death.
Second year, they WORK you to death.
Third year, they bore you to death." ~The Law School Chronicles

Yesterday was miserable. I had this throbbing headache all day from not eating and sleeping properly the night before. Burrow (Barry Furrow, Health Law Prof) assigned us 100 pages to read in one night. On top of that, I had a chunky Criminal Procedure assignment. My professor for that class is pretty quirky (in a good way). He sounds like a cross between the the Wilson brothers (Luke & Owen) and Jack Nicholson, if you can imagine that.

Health Law is turning out to be quite interesting. I keep thinking about my sister whenever we do these assignments. I remember her telling me how medical students/nurses are socialized into the profession by being humiliated on the spot by senior physicians if they were off about something. The article I was reading proposed that medical errors in hospitals could be reduced if the medical culture itself changed; that is, instead of blaming and embarrassing individual physicians for errors, hospitals should target the underlying causes. Those causes I have yet to learn. One would think though if hospitals reduced the hours for their residents and interns so they could stay healthy and ready for their patients, the output would be more productive and result in fewer lawsuits.

I have a bit more time today to linger around and NAP. I'm amazed I only needed a half-hour to feel refreshed. Anyway, back to work for me...Evidence awaits!

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Lifehouse's Everything Skit

I thought this sketch was quite profound, so I thought I'd share it.

A 2L Induction

I cannot believe I am in my second year of law school. As much as I dreaded coming here again, it was sort of nice to be done with the agony of the first year and feel a sense of entitlement as a second year. It was strange seeing students in the hallway that I didn't know; last year our inaugural class was the only class that roamed the halls. Now we've got to share the territory!

I felt conflicted about the first year students' presence; I simultaneously felt like warning them about what they were getting into and (perhaps advise them to run the other way) while on the other hand, secretly and snarkily giggle to myself about how big egos would soon topple.

The sad thing is, not once did I think about the third option: You'll go through difficulties but stick it out! After all, that's what I did; that's what millions of people through the ages have done. I hope never to think the opposite again. I hope never to forget why I came here in the first place, because that reminder is the only thing that keeps me here.

Saturday, September 1, 2007

Floating words

Have you ever woken up with so much on your mind and yet no comprehensible way to say it all? Today was one of those mornings.