It's Been A While

My energy is drained. I feel that I have so much to write and share and yet have nowhere to begin.

SO here I am again posting an entry from another, far more insightful blogger than me.
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Don’t believe everything they tell you. Love is not blind, no matter how desperately we wish it would be. We pray others would not see our imperfections, insecurities, vulnerabilities, weaknesses, or those things that we hate about ourselves. We work tirelessly to construct facades that they may love; but we fail to realize that in doing so, they will never love us, but only the portrait that we have painted for them. For every time we hope, however faintly, that some other beauty that we hold would cause our imperfections to pale in comparison, that our loved ones would not notice them at all, we miss something truly incredible about love – something incredible about God.

There are many things that have overflowed from God’s creative genius – laughter, sexuality, rest, the pleasure of eating a good steak; but love is entirely different altogether. It wasn’t imagined by God – it is central to His being, inextricably bound to His very essence; and when I think about how He loves, He is not oblivious to the wretchedness of my heart; rather, He loves me in spite of it. What makes His love so incredible is not its ability to be blind, but its ability to see, and love anyway. It is gazing upon all that I have done, and all that I am through the eyes of grace, giving to me when I had nothing to give in return, and loving me knowing fully well that I will never be able to love Him the same. The fact that I have this kind of affection from God, when “the real me” is in plain sight before Him, is what makes His love so amazing – and so utterly baffling. You see, we will make many attempts at love; but as long as we keep our eyes closed, we will never really see the person we love for who they are. For if our love is to mean anything at all, we must love with our eyes wide open.
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